I want to be a good parent. Right now, I feel like my daughter hates me. She has a lot of anger directed at me because I want to introduce her to the man in my life, and he isn’t her father.
I want to let go of the need to please her. I want to let go of the desire to change her experience. I want to let go of the guilt and the idea that I am ruining her life. I want to be me. I want to let go and melt and expand into the ether of love and pleasure and joy. I think it’s waiting for me, but I haven’t found it yet.