There is a space I allow for “not knowing” in my life.
When I paint, I don’t know what it will look like; it’s unplanned and I am allowing it to be created through me. When I am being interviewed, I don’t know what I will say beforehand and I don’t rehearse anything, for fear of sounding too forced; instead, I allow what wants to be said to move through me. I don’t know what will happen tomorrow. I don’t know what the future holds for my relationships, my career, and my life.
Sometimes the “not knowing” can cause fear to show up, like when I am in pain, or when something unpleasant happens. But I still welcome the uncertainty. I actually embrace this not knowing, because otherwise, if I knew it all, my life would be pretty dull.