Today I realized (again, seems it takes awhile to learn) that instead of focusing on my pain, it would be more beneficial to focus on what feels good. What you pay attention to will grow, so it’s time for me to feel the warmth of a heating pack, sense the relaxation of my muscles as I lie down, feel the joy as I hear my son laugh and see my daughters dance around the room. This is a struggle sometimes, as the pain tries to pull me inward and pushes me to focus on it. I don’t want it to be a fight, but rather, a gentle shifting of attention, like sensing my breath instead of listening to my meandering thoughts while I’m meditating. It might be time for another look at Full Catastrophe Living by Jon Kabat-Zinn. That book rocks.
Custom paintings are a great gift for weddings and other occasions as well. Wouldn’t it be great to only give handmade items for the holidays? Some year I will accomplish this. I came pretty close 3 years ago when I crocheted a whole bunch of dolls, and knit slippers – I’m not sure how my arms didn’t fall off!
If you are looking for a unique, one-of-a-kind gift, look no further! A painting with your favourite quotation, or words that have special meaning for you, is the ideal present! Contact me if you are interested, or see my etsy shop.
My first craft show at the Waldorf Faire was a success! My mom was there and helped me set up on Friday, stayed with me all day Saturday and helped me dismantle it all. What a lot of work! Thanks, Ma!! I am so glad she was there experience it with me!
I sold over 70 magnets, some pins, cards, the lazy susan, 3 frames, and a painting, plus got a commission for another painting! My daughters sold half of their dolls, too! I loved being able to talk to so many people that I know. One girl from the school came back to the table three times (and bought something each time!).
I was surrounded by great people – Michelle and Alecia (selling belt buckles), Colleen (knitwear and jewelery), and Darcy from the Alberta Etsy team was right behind me! I look forward to doing it again next year!
Here’s a hint of what I’ve been up to these last few weeks, preparing for the Waldorf Faire. This will be my first time as a vendor at a craft show! I’m quite excited about it, and really happy that my mom will be there with me!
These are my painted pins or buttons – I’m never really sure what to call them! I’ve been surrounded by varnish and rubber cement for the last few days. I’m sure I’ve killed off a few brain cells! It’s a bit hard to get any air circulation downstairs now that the snow has arrived and it’s COLD! For some reason, I occasionally have an issue with crazing of the varnish, and I can’t figure out why. It’ll happen to some but not others, within the same batch, so it’s not a temperature thing. I guess it’s time to try a new varnish.
I’ve made about 100 magnets, too, and I’m hoping they all sell!
It is fitting that I am putting this page up today. At the Core Connexion workshop today, we were dancing while imagining our support systems behind us. I thought of all the wonderful people who came to my art show and supported me that night. This painting was done the day before the art show. I can tell I’m tired.. this seems much wordier than it needs to be!! Dancing all day is tiring!
I would love for this to be a funny blog. Any ideas on how to get funny? That reminds me – my son likes to ask about how people “get dead”. He’s a funny kid. Doesn’t stop talking!!
It seems like a lot of my writing in this journal is about guilt, so far. It would be a change to not feel guilt! How does one do this? How do you turn guilt around? What is the opposite of guilt? (My son would say, “No guilt”, and maybe that is just the answer)
Acceptance? Is that it? Sounds good to me.
Crap. I just realized that this is the second blog title with guilt in it. Not very original. Now I feel guilty. Haha!
On a totally different topic.. I got a request for 100 cards yesterday! Yay!
I like how this page looks in mini-format!
I started going to a coach again. I’m seeing her less often than my last, and it’s a different experience than before. A little more like chatting with a friend, less like being grilled and forced to dig into my emotions. Don’t be mistaken, I am still digging in… just not feeling as forced to go there. Or maybe I am more willing. Anyway, one of my sessions was about my feeling small, especially in NYC. I managed to go to NYC and not feel small this time – big improvement over last year! And, it was a great place to be in right before my art show.
I wrote the page on the left when my son was in swimming lessons. I “forgot” our last two lessons. He’s only in preschool level, and I am tired of his crying before class, and my feeling guilty. We’ll put him back in lessons when he’s 6, but for now, just give him a break. He loves going in the water when it’s just for fun, and even put his head under the water this summer! I’d rather have it stay a positive experience for him.
What a beautiful fall we are having! So sunny and warm, and it’s November already!! I love it!